doing nothing but sketch

I have no idea what I can do today. But my fingers miss to draw something. So, I make few sketchs. Hope you liked it. It's not perfect. I'm still learning

I do not make any mark in this sketches. so, please do not steal my works. If you want e-mail me!
love, natasha
xoxo

beach or bitch ?!

a couple months ago. my mom, my brothers, my mom's friend and her family and I went to a city and spontaneously touch down at the beach. Luckly, I brought my camera.

these some photos. if you want to see the whole photos just click here!

your comment will make my day.

love, natasha

xoxo 

facial expressions

can you expressing your feeling? are you have porcelain face? are you one of the sufferer of Mobius Syndrome? I have been learned about this at my English course. maybe, you were confuse, we were learned about facial expressions, literally.

We watched the sufferer of Mobius syndrome and Asperger disease? did you ever hear about those words? Mobius syndrome is a syndrome when you can't move your face muscles. You must through muscle transment so you can smile as a normal person. I really sad heard that. If we flashback, we were lucky can smile, laugh, express our feeling normally.
Asperger disease is a disease that someone can't read someone else expressions. based on the movie, he must learned first to know what they're feeling.

we can make this facial expressions. but how with the sufferer of Mobius syndrome? How can the sufferer of Asperger disaster read this expression without any book wrote 'how to read other expression?'

we were smiled when we were happy. when we were in a good mood. I really can't imagine how hard to supressing your feeling. Not because you want, but you can't. I really really wanna cry whether I heard about that more.

white with terror! imagine you were the sufferer, you can't make any facial expressions of fear. What you were doing to asked any help? Yelling? Is it possible?

laugh? How easy? How usually we laugh a day? I laughed all day long, smile tto everyone I knew. I laughed just now. and I knew just know too that out there at the other side of this earth, there's someone can't laugh. Can't read any expressions behind the laughed? the real laughed or the fake laughed.

I just went home after did the English course. we laughed each other, there's always something funny can we laughed. We always laugh each other. As the youngest person at the class, those seniors laughed at me mostly. It's such a beautiful moment. there's much stars at the sky. I loved stars than the moon. maybe, this is the influence of novel 'separuh bintang' (a half of stars), one of my favourite novel.

ps: I was stole all photos at this post on uncle google. I don't take any photos yet. I'll take as soon as possible as long I'm not busy because of school assignment and their stuff.

love, natasha
xoxo

my quiet-busy day

I'm so sorry for not post for a while. but I didn't do it with no reason. I have, of course.
I was really busy. It was the first week at school and the assignment really wow. It looked like the teachers racing who gave the most much assignment. it was crazy and I'm so tired. and now a days I mostly sleepless, I thought I got insomnia. I can't sleep at early time.

This is my second year at Senior High School. I was speechless and afraid. know why? Because I thought that this second year must be hard and I don't know how to through it well. I know what I was thought is false. I don't have any self confidence yet to through this. I always hear that this second year at Senior High School the lesson is sooo hard. at least, that was my cousin said. I don't want to get down like this. So, I wrote this post between my fast and busy time.

 no matter what happen next. I must be stronger and have much self confidence to through this. I can't be lose because of this hard lesson. people can, why I am not.

this is my way to have my self confidence back and stronger and never ever ever get tired to try and through this. you know, I think my self confidence and my energy is back. I don't want to have negative thinking anymore. I must be strong. 

I had a new class and a few new classmates. I haven't know them well yet. But, I try to have a good friendship with them. today, my 2 friend have to moving their class because that was enjoined by the fucking vice headmaster. I don't intentionally to upset with him but all students at my school hate him. Because he rough. really rough and arrogant.
 
before they move, I had perpetuated crazy-weird moment but it doesn't much and fortunately they're not into.

this is some of my friends. there are deddy, aqil (I usually call him babe), and mauni (I usually call her muni) I thought she has a problem, maybe serious problem with her boyfriend, so that's way she looked so sad and frustrated at the  photo.


love, natasha
xoxo

Spending my Bored-Time

a couple days ago, my 2nd brother really noisy to go to Ramayana (I lived in small town and the kitsch place to hangout like a mall is only Ramayana). we had much ticket's zone 2000. really much. we have placed it in the box because of that. That's why my brother forced to went there immediately. even though he was tired and asleep, but imagine that he cans play and change those tickets with games he really wants make him happy and always asked unimportant thing (it was his sign, he was happy then he asked everything).

at first, I won't to went there because that day was the last chapter of my favorite drama. but mom forced me to go. it was okay in the trip. it was night, in the car and I bought my camera. So, I can tried a new tech how to make a bright highlight (I don't know what the name of that effect, actually) which I read on my favorite photographer's blog.

 

what do you think about my artwork? hope you liked it, I'm still learning hehe. 

to short the whole story, I've played some games and suddenly saw the cutest kid (or baby?)

she is cute, isn't she? hehe

so, the good things from the story (you do what you didn't like is) you can did the great things at the same time. did you know what I mean? I bet you not. I didn't want to go to Ramayana, but I can learned to make bright highlight on the photo in the camera and I met the cutest kid (or baby?). that's the example.  

you want to see the whole photos? click :here 

love, natasha

xoxo 

Happy Birthday, Grandma!!

today, july 6th is my grandma birthday. she is a grandma from my mother side. I didn't have grandpa anymore. He was gone on 2005. from my father side I didn't have grandpa and grandma. grandma is 77 years old today.

literally, I was knew that my grandma has birthday today was last night. I didn't prepare a present or something special for her. Then, I realized that I have a new blog and I deleted that because I started to confuse haha. So, I made a new one and start in a new page. did you know what my present is? actually, it was I made a post on my blog about her and special for her. luckily I have photos of her so I can show you my beautiful grandma.

I have said 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA! I HOPE YOU ALWAYS HEALTH, MORE PATIENCE, HAS LONG AGE, STRONGER AND OTHER AND OTHER, EVERYTHING GOOD.'

she is one of my unsung heroes. I have much unsung heroes because I have a lot people around me who makes the real me like now. she a great chef, mom rarely to be in the kitchen because she is a busy woman. I'm not cooking yet. my brother is really a laziest person I've ever known and he has unstable emotion as always. so, grandma always cooking for us. 

she is the most patient person I've ever known. brother usually shouted obscenities at her (he is the worst grandchild ever) she always patient and didn't give brother punishment. 

this is some photos of my grandma, me, dain, my uncle, mbak pur and mom. once more, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA!! I LOVE YOU AND I ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

ps: I have plan I want buy a photo frame and placing some photos of her on that. like what I do to my friend.

love, natasha

xoxo